Nothingness

i hold in my hand nothingness
an empty vacuous thing
that i pulled out from my heart
leaving behind a space
where space used to be
it's a dark and congealed nothingness
heavy with remembrances past
i shudder in recognition
for two such nothingness had once
stared back at me from a mirror
it was comforting once
an unassuming friend
keeping me company
gentle benumbing soporific
in my palm it shimmers
a kaleidascope of images
vestiges of memories dark
long supressed but not forgotten
my heart had played host
to this nothingness
a parasite thriving on
the marrow of soul
till i was but a shell
my soul enslaved
my spirit a pale flicker
yet i was alive
waiting for that spark of life
the touch of love
the courage to feel once again
waiting for you and you came
i am whole again
no emptiness in my heart
only you

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